last night i spoke to my mom on the phone and i told her about this woman i really like.
mom is definitely holding out for me to fall madly in love with a nice young man someday.
she said to me, “oh i don’t know what to say.” to which i replied, “you don’t have to stay anything.” and she then said, in a calm, genuine voice, “well, you have a crush.” “yup, mom, i have a crush.”
and this is good. i know how my parents feel. and knowing all of that, i feel like i can still talk about who i like and who i’m hanging out with.
figuring this whole thing out has been interesting. maneuvering through my own emotions and often trying to manage others has caused me to be tight lipped, miss family reunions, avoid certain topics and to tell you the truth, it can be exhausting. so slowly, but surely i am trying to prepare myself to be more open, to my family, co-workers and even complete strangers.
so this weekend is about preparing for the future. i’m going to get in my car on monday and drive a long way to see some family. i’m going to listen to some inspiring tunes and feel confident that whatever it is i am doing is my path and it’s always the right one, because it’s mine.
i also wanted to bid a farewell to the vancouver winter olympics, which i have enjoyed immensely, especially the very emotional women’s figure skating! i have to post this commercial (not that i really want to promote this product, but whatevs) as i was tivo-ing through the games, i would often stop on this commercial cause i love it so much.
i like the idea of limitless possibilities and ethereal dream like potential. featuring olympian Gretchen Bleiler: