Archive | April, 2011

new beginnings

24 Apr

easter is really about candy and ham for me. but it is springtime and things are blooming and it all feels so…. fresh. it’s got me thinking.

do you ever have those moments where you realize you know nothing? just when you think you know. you don’t. and actually it’s not at all frustrating, it’s enlightening in it’s way. sort of like, oh…yeah. i’ve got a lot to do still. a lot to see. a lot to learn. and i should probably shut my face more often then not.

speaking of shutting faces- this lady Louis J. Marinelli worked for the national organization for marriage, which is essentially an anti-gay “organization” specifically targeting LGBT peeps who want to get married. anyway, she worked for them for 5 years and then had a come to baby jesus moment where she realized she was WRONG. that’s rights gays, she was wrong, she acknowledged it and apologized. she said she had a change of heart because during her time being a hater she met a lot of gays who were kind and apolitical, simply normal people wanting to get married.

huh. well there you go. sometimes we’re wrong and we have to say sorry. it’s a tough lesson. and even though sometimes that word feels meaningless, it’s not. it’s not at all.

big girls

13 Apr

i’ve been thinking a lot about body image and how that effects sexuality. in some ways i think it does a whole lot because although i believe sexuality is mostly inherently biological i do also of course believe that our sexuality is massively based on our upbringing and to make it even more confusing it’s psychological. in other words we see ourselves how we believe others perceive us, even if it’s not realistic.

i’m a curvy gal. i like curves. i love hips and breasts, a bit of belly and ass. i do. i like when a lady is soft. i like to be soft. and it’s taken me a long time to get more comfortable with my body. am i happy with it? naw. but i’m learning to be nicer to my body. i’m learning to listen to it and god help me i’m learning to appreciate it! to celebrate curves here are some gorgeous women for your viewing pleasure.

that makes me happy

she’s not scared to look good in a bathing suit

yay! even big [READ: normal] girls like to pose in fake lesbian-like moments. hoorah!

images borrowed from here.

In some things the old-fashioned ways are best, after all

3 Apr

i’ve reached that “stage” in my life where about 98% of my friends are married or partnered and having kids. considering i’m about 10 years behind all my friends, i’m thinking by 40 i might have this whole thing figured out. don’t get me wrong, i’m not an unhappy single lady, but i had a weird moment on saturday when i wanted to go to target, but for some reason i didn’t want to go alone. this is unusual because i do most things happily on my own. so i contacted several people to do a little shopping, but everybody was busy and i have to admit i had this fleeting thought: “if i had a partner they would go with me.” this was stupid. mostly cause it’s not even true and also because i was using it somehow as an excuse to feel sorry for myself- so stupid. so i went to target and had a fucking good time on my own.

this old fashioned lady and her buick (chevy?) can wait while i figure some shit out on my own.